Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Life In the Desert

My poor neglected blog. When I began this blog 5 year ago I was desperate for something to keep me sane during the hubby’s deployment. Now I’m back again desperate for something to keep me sane during our last 6 months in the desert. This has been hard.

Things no one tells you about living in the middle of desert:

1.       Driving 45 minutes to the nearest town doesn’t sound bad until you’ve actually done it. Over and over and over again. Before we moved here I thought, “3 hours from Las Vegas, 2 hours to LA and a little less than an hour to another town? No problem. We’ll be in LA and Vegas all the time!” Ha. There comes a moment when you decide it’s no longer fun to drive for hours to get basic things.

It is a long drive home.

2.       You miss green. Seriously. I miss green trees, green grass, green shrubs….basically any sign of life.

3.       Your tiny oasis can become a tiny hell. When you’re stuck for years in the same very small place what was once I nice getaway from the world becomes a prison. You see the same faces, go to the same handful of places and do the same things daily. People can get catty and rude because they feel as grumpy as you do about being stuck in the middle of the desert. We all seem to take it out on each other and it’s not fun.

4.       The wildlife. There are tortoises. And wild donkeys. And coyotes. And snakes.  The donkeys wander around the neighborhoods, the coyotes look like they’re all on death’s doorstep and I still haven’t seen the tortoises.

5.       You find out quickly who your friends are. The people who will drop anything to help you when there is a problem. I’ve only managed to find a handful of those kinds of people but knowing that I’ve got them makes all the difference.

It’s been a hell of an experience living the middle of the desert and one I’m sure I’ll never forget. It’s been lonely, it’s been depressing but it’s also been eye opening.  I think I’m a better person for it as well. 

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Keeping Sane and Being Thankful

Round One. It started in the middle of the night with a loud cry coming from the crib and I knew it was going to be a long night. There I find my sweet Big Man looking up at me, half asleep, burning up, coughing and very upset.  Baby Tylenol and rocking to the rescue…..and a few hours later more crying and coughing and more rocking This cycle continued on a for a while.

The morning comes and fever goes up and down……more coughing……then queue the diarrhea.  And of course there is still crying. I run to the grocery store because we’re out of milk and then attempt to disinfect the house. Then it’s time to pick up Snuggle Bug from school and out comes my sweet girl working on what sounds like coughing up a lung. Round two, here we go.

She’s still too young for cough medicine so, “Here’s a spoon full of honey to help with you cough sweetheart.” Then I accidently drop the contaminated spoon back into the honey. Crap.

“Mommy …cough…I have my show tonight the teacher told ….cough….us to remind our mommies and daddies.” Oh no. Daddy is working until 10pm so there’s no back here. That’s his shift for a while and this is nothing new for us. Army. Hooah. Yeah.

Now unless I plan on letting her cough her way through five songs tonight while I attempt to keep the sick Big Man happy there is no way I can let her go tonight.

Round 3. Lots and lots of crying.  He is crying because he doesn’t feel well.  She is crying because she can’t go to her very first Kindergarten performance so she can sing the songs she’s been practicing so diligently for the last month. The dogs are crying because they want someone to let them outside now. The whole house is crying……everyone but me. I suppose I could cry in this moment of parental stress. I’m disappointed that we can’t go to her performance because I was truly looking forward to watching my sweet girl sing her heart out with her friends. I’m upset that my Big Man is sick because no mother wants to watch their toddler in distress. I’m frustrated that I don’t have a family member or close friend in my community to lend me a hand.

But it’s okay. It’s okay because I’m happy to be a mommy. I’m happy to be here to take care of my children through the ups and the downs. I’m happy and proud that my husband is doing a job that he loves. This is just a tiny blip in the sequence of my life and I know one day when I’m old and grey I’ll look back on these times and think about rocking my baby boy while he falls asleep after a long night and smile. I’ll think about cuddling my Snuggle Bug in a quilt on the couch, popping in a movie and she looks up at me with her big blue eyes and says, “thanks mommy.” That will bring me joy.

What a day. What a previous night. Who am I kidding this is going to be one of those weeks where I end everyday saying, “what a day.”  But it’s just another day in the life of being a mommy and I’m okay with that.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Another Day in Paradise

Another day of getting back to where I began. I’ve been a bad housewife lately.  I used to take so much joy in cleaning, organizing and crafting but over the past year I’ve fallen away from that. But, thankfully, I’m heading back, and it feels so good. My mind is just overflowing with ideas and creativity! But it will all have to wait for a bit while I get things ready for Christmas and for my brother’s arrival. I’m so excited to have my family here for the holidays! So much to do!!
So…..what crafts are YOU working on? I’d love some inspiration.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Happy Holidays!!

Happy Holidays everyone out there in blog land!! I hope you are all enjoying time with family, friends and lots of good and happy feelings.

Here in my life things have been super busy. The hubby works a lot and Snuggle Bug is loving Kindergarten. Little man is growing like a weed and it seems like he'll be celebrating his 2nd  birthday before we know it! There have been highs and lows for the year of 2013. The isolation of our current location has affected my depression and anxiety issues so I've been taking as much time as I can working on fixing those. During that time I feel away from my blog, running and most things that brought me joy. But I'm back on the healthy track, feeling better and ready to tackle whatever 2014 has for me!

Don't worry.....I'm definitely going to be back!

Friday, February 1, 2013

Holiday Mash-Up

This is my Valentine's Day Pumpkin! I bought this pumpkin back in October planning on making a jack o lantern out of it but never got around to it. Next thing I knew I was decorating it for Christmas thinking it would never last past December..... and now here it is as a Valentine's day pumpkin.

Honestly, I don't know how long this thing will last. I'm sure once summer hits and we're in triple digits here in the California desert it will finally bite the dust. But until then I'm going to enjoy decorating my pumpkin for as many holidays as I can!
I wonder what other fun holiday mash-ups are out there......

Monday, November 5, 2012

Starting new.

I’m back.

As one can notice, it has been a long time since my last post and I’ve done a poor job at keeping this blog updated over the last few years. We got to California in March and just a few short months later we had our amazing son, who I’ll call Big Guy….. it has been a huge adjustment. I’m finding that the California desert has its up and downs

I started this blog the night before my Snuggle Bug turned a year old (she is no 4 ½). It was a way to pass the time while the hubby was deployed. I was stuck in a very isolated and lonely place and it kept my spirits up to blog and read others blogs. It seems that I’m back in that position again. Though the hubby isn’t deployed his long work hours make it hard for him to help much or even be around. I tried to keep up with this blog while we lived in Colorado but between school, modeling, friends and other activities I was so busy. But here I am again ready to put my creative energy back into my blog.

Lets see what happens…….

Monday, April 2, 2012

Settling In

What a busy time it’s been!
The move went well and we’re finally finishing up the unpacking. It went a little slower than usual because we all got sick a few days after getting here but we shook it off and are doing much better.
Here is our lovely little house!

Isn’t it nice?

It isn't any smaller than our last place but everything just feels a bit more narrow and there is much less storage so it has been a little tricky making everything fit the way I want it to.
Mother in Law came out for our first weekend in town and it was very nice having some extra help with Snuggle Bug while we unpacked. This place is finally starting to feel like home but I’m sure I’ll be doing plenty of rearranging in the weeks and months to come before I get things just right.
The hubby is back at work today and it’s nice to finally get onto a normal schedule again. Snuggle Bug is having breakfast, I’ve had my coffee and I’ve gotten the pot roast into the crock pot so things finally feel normal again. What should we do today?